our little family
Lyla being Lyla
me and my 3 favorite people
I know I haven't blogged a lot in the past few weeks... I think it's because my emotions seem to be changing every day. On the one hand I am so thankful for John, thankful for Lyla, thankful for family, thankful for friends, thankful for our church family, and so thankful that I am experiencing the blessing of being lifted up in prayer each and every day, making this time more blessed than it is painful. On the other hand, I am sad thinking about Evie's diagnosis, sad about her short life expectancy, sad about missing her grow up, and sad about the emptiness that I can start to feel when I think about her leaving me.
I was reading a blog that my sister sent to me from a friend of a friend, and one of my favorite entries is "Lord Give me the Wisdom NOT to Waste all of This!" I don't want to waste a minute of this experience feeling sorry for myself and not experience the joy of Evie's life. I don't want to waste a minute of the time we have with her grieving, we will have time to do that when she's gone. I don't want to waste a minute of these next 6-8 weeks of time that I have to prepare my heart to experience God's faithfulness... like the other mom said on her blog "He chose us for this, and if I'm going to walk through a valley of this magnitude, then you best believe I will not waste this. I will not walk out unchanged, lacking more than when I entered in."
Our next appointment is next Tuesday, with a family meeting on Friday. I will update more when we have more information. Keep praying for healing friends, nothing is impossible with God.
Love you!
Oh Lindsey what beautiful pictures! You will cherish them forever! You are such a strong person and great mom!!!
ReplyDeleteLindsey,
ReplyDeleteHe has already changed you. I see Jesus in you. Your faithfulness is beautiful.
love,
Julianna
Lindsey,
ReplyDeleteYour pictures are beautiful, your family is beautiful, your words are beautiful. You are in my families prayers. Evie is so blessed to have you for a mom!
A MOPS friend
Truly beautiful pictures.
ReplyDeleteThe pictures are gorgeous - what a treasure! I'm praying for you especially tomorrow at your appt. and then on friday! Let Jesus hold you friend! Shanna
ReplyDeleteGood Morning Sweetheart,
ReplyDeleteMy heart is acheing in a way only a Nanas could. How I love Evie and her little nose. I will hold her in my heart till I hold her in heaven. You are an amazing Mom and everyone you touch through Evies life will be impacted in a way only only God will know. You will be blessed for living this out for Jesus in a way only you will know. I am blessed to love you and hold you in my arms in only a way a mom could know. My prayers are always on my heart for you and your little family. Love Mom
What a beautiful post. Awesome pictures too. You Go Girl. No matter the outcome.. Nothing.. and I mean Nothing is impossible. Things don't always turn out how we think they are going to OR how they are supposed to AND even when they do God is always there. You know that. I know that. Loved this post! It's given me a lot to consider and to think about and dwell on. Thanks.
ReplyDeleteWhat a privilege to get to know you through Evie Jayne. I am praying for your family, and especially, I am praying for your Family Care Conference on Friday. May your caregivers be sensitive to every word you share with them Friday morning, and may your family be blessed through this experience.
ReplyDeleteYou are blessed to be a blessing, and your caregivers will learn much from you!
Mary
Love the pics! Karely is saying hi to Lyla in the pics as we look at them. We are continuing to pray for you. Evie Jayne is so special and you can see how loved she is in these beautiful pics. Hugs & Kisses! Love, Carrie
ReplyDeleteI love what you wrote about the blogs Kirstin told you about. So cool! I love you, Linds!
ReplyDeleteLindsey,
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing young woman! Know that God will give you the grace needed for the moment when Evie arrives. He is preparing the hearts of your entire family for Evie's birth. I know that experience will be such a blessing to your family, it is His promise! Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make your paths straight. Prov. 3:5-6 We are continuing to pray for you all.
Doug, Sandi, Clay, Kylie & Grant