Praise God, I am so ready to sleep in my own bed... that plastic couch in our hospital room just wasn't very welcoming after so many days (: Evie is doing good, home with nothing but an NG tube (a tube up her nose) that we can feed her in if she doesn't take enough formula by mouth. Other than that, she is very close to back to normal.
I got to leave the hospital to take Lyla to church this morning (a much needed break). Rob was singing the song "Everything" by Tim Hughes and it just penetrated my heart. Here are the words from the verses:
God in my living
There in my breathing
God in my waking
God in my sleeping
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God in my resting
There in my working
God in my thinking
God in my speaking
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chorus: Be my everything (repeat)
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God in my hoping
There in my dreaming
God in my watching
God in my waiting
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God in my laughing
There in my weeping
God in my hurting
God in my healing
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chorus: Be my everything (repeat)
What am I going to take away from this most recent bout of hospitalization?... well each day was a new day. Good or bad there was no planning, preparing, and nothing to do but be present, take care of Evie the best I know how, and trust God with that day. God WAS and WILL BE there in my hoping, watching, waiting, laughing, weeping, hurting, and healing. After 20 years of being a "worry-er" God is teaching me to trust
Matthew 6:34
Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
God isn't making a suggestion to me, it's a command. I can't even wrap my mind around how the next 6 months are going to go, and after thinking we may lose Evie twice now, I can't even go there.
So tonight, I'm going to go sit on the couch with John, watch Lyla play, and hold Evie. Today, she is doing great, and that is enough for me today.
Love you friends,
Lindsey
Praying for peace for you and John! So glad you are all home now :) Thank you for updating us Lindsey!
ReplyDeleteSarah Goldsberry
Lindsey, I love your strength and your in the moment peacefulness as you enjoy Evie! This post was so inspiring. Thank you for sharing "Everything", I love it! I'm so glad that you are home and enjoying your own bed! I remember the plastic lounge chair days in the hospital, not very comfy! Still praying for you all! Hugs!
ReplyDeleteLindsey you are such an inspiration to me! You are an amazing person...My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you, John, Evie, and Lyla! Enjoy each moment you have with your girls....
ReplyDeleteLindsey, your faith brings tears to my eyes. God might be teaching you, but you are teaching me. Praying for showers of love for you all today. (nevermind the snow!)
ReplyDeleteI learned through kyle not to think of tomorrow or the future and when I do to say to myself stop! don't go there and pray to God to take those thoughts and fears away. Oh Lindsey and John how you and your precious family have been in our hearts, thoughts and prayers. Remember to think of only today and oh what a wonderful day it is. Then look back and find where God's hand was in each of your moments of fear. love you all Patti O
ReplyDeleteBeing home sounds glorious! Makes me think of the joy we will have when we are finally home with our heavenly Father forever! What a day that will be! Praising God that you are all home together!! Enjoy a restful weekend!
ReplyDeleteStill praying!
Lindsey,
ReplyDeleteThanks for yet another inspirational reminder... I too, have always been a 'worry'er'. Through your journey, I have learned so much. I will not worry about tomorrow today, but just thank God for today!
Love you!
Gina
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